Isla

When I was pregnant with Isla, I sometimes wondered how I could share the love that I have for Mikaella with this new little baby. I worried that I might not have the same bond or connection that I have with her older sister but everyone reassured me that it was possible and that I would have the same crazy love for her as I do for M and they were totally right.

Isla just melts my heart. There is something about her that is so wonderful. Maybe it was the bond that we built while I sat beside her incubator at the NICU day after day while she fought to be here or maybe it has something to do with the fact that she was born months after my Nana and there's something about her spirit that reminds me of my Nana, but either way - she is so incredibly special to me. There are moments when I look at her and she just smiles at me and for some reason she makes me feel like I am the only one in the world that can make her feel that way. She resembles me too and maybe I feel so much of myself when I look at her and I daydream about what kind of a person she will be. Will she enjoy sports as much as I do? Will she be a fussy eater like I was? Will she excel in subjects like English over Math and Science? Maybe I project so much of what I was like on her just simply because she looks like me so much and she will turn out to be the exact opposite! Either way, I will love her just the same.

Right now, she is starting to laugh and giggle and I'm trying every silly little way I can to make her crack up because it makes my day. I love that I get to enjoy the way that Mikaella is growing and changing as a 2 year old and yet simultaneously I get to re-enjoy the baby phase. M's vocabulary is expanding exponentially and it is so great to hear her express herself and I can't wait for Isla to be able to converse with her and play together but for now I am totally enjoying the simple giggles and smiles that she is giving these days as a playful 4 month old.

Our days are simple, we eat, sleep and play. We usually finish our days with a walk to the beach and wait for Daddy to come home from work but we have a lot of fun. Some days are more difficult than others especially when teething is involved but it has been so stellar having the girls together and for me to be able to take care of them.

This is a pic from this week on our daily stroll to the beach at the end of our street. Mikaella couldn't wait to knock on our friend Cruz's door and Isla was quite content with looking all around now that she is big enough to face out in the Baby Bjorn.